i wonder whether all the very amusing scenarios we see in movies really happen in real life.
also, i wonder whether there's like such a thing as a mind reader.
sometimes i really hope that ppl would just tell others exactly what they feel and stuff? i don't know i always do it and i guess maybe it's just not everybody's thing and i can understand.
anyway. kt recived my halloween card. so yay. she said thanks for the 'little surprise'. haha.
anyway, these few days i have unconsciously been talking to sharon, and hui hui and phong abt ppl. and all have kinda convinced me that it doesn't really matter what the other party thinks as long as you think so it's good enough. haha. i'm sorry it doesn't make enough sense. but yes lisa and jo (cause i know u guys read my blog) it's about whoever you think i'm talking about.
haha.
been studying in class with my class palz and it's been okay i guess. today i learnt how to play german bridge and yesterday we played frisbee with the butter cookies can cover.

anyway. back to unrelented blabbering.
sharon told me today that sometimes we just have to give even though we know that it's not 'worth it' in a sense. as long as we cherish it enough. cause i was super determined to just forget that we were close (i'm not talking bout kt btw to all my friends), but i thought bout kt and i realized that what she said made sense. but i still don't know how much i want to cont maintaining this whole thing. cause it's super draining, tiring.
i really don't know why i'm talking like that. it's gross and complainy.
anyway, i still want to do overseas volunteer work. anyway has anything to recommend?
oh ya. i was thinking of my wedding today. i'm sorry. i don't know why i skipped so many steps and thought bout that. (cause i still don't have a bf, even worse i don't even like anyone ) goodness.
bye. alevels sooooooooon.

i'm watching harry potter again...
oh man..
it's so sad that cedric died. he was q hamsome. haha.
i made salty chicken feet todayl. damn yummy. i ate two and i'm going to eat the rest with my family later. haha.
i made my first halloween card the other day. haha.
okay. i have nothing to say. give me ideas. bye

YAY. the other day i went back to crescent and heng and zesa promised to buy me flowers for the musical evening. haha. i hope they remember though. ):
cause i seldom recieve flowers. sadly...
haha.
even though i don't really love them.but i guess it just makes you happy at least for that night...
anyway, today is stay home day. i shall try out later whether i can study properly.
if not then millenia walk is my HOME for the next few wks.
okay. i shall watch project runway( the ultra old version) and start to study. BYE.
anyway. huihui! they are symptoms. u just don't understand what i was saying...cause my mom says so. and she's kinda...yup. haha,.

hah. from my tagboard i can sooooo see how my friends want me to die. not really la.
phy and louie maybe. hohoho.
i'm just jkin.
anyway, i've decided to stay home today...so i'll be making chestnut cake. i'm typing this now cause i'm just waiting for the chestnuts to boil...haha.
i should keep a book of my all time favourite recipes. okay. i'll do just that. and be like those old grandmas who take out their book 4234890238 yrs later and let their grandchildren read. but u can't understand anything though it looks super ancient cuase the pages are yellowing, the ink is fading and the book's rotting.and perhaps by that time we'll just be speaking an altoghether different language. hmmm.
i'm going to do maths, then hist then econs. hah. like what else right.
i better start. anyway, i've been having super bad gastric these few days.
my mom said maybe i'm too stressed. but i really don't feel it.
but maybe it's true cause yesterday when i walked into my room it hurt real bad.
okay let's see. i'm going to send out the rest of my application today for ust.
actually now on 2nd thoughts i hope i'll get into hku instead. cause it's nearer home. and they have nice hostels. (and it's near lisa's hse) hahahahha.
okay. i shall check on my chestnuts. i miss food club. haven't talked to them for darn long. but everybody's busy la hoh. bye.

i'm blogging aft 242348098 years. okay la. not really.
anyway, graduation's over. i don't really feel much. sadly ):
but maybe it's cause i've been seeing stella, hwing, sharon, jeanette, jeremy, imelda and christine today...so it doesn't really feel so bad. went with hwing to see bro paul today and we waited for darn long. i was kinda telling hwing bout all the things secretaries do. haha.
seriously. brother paul's secretary is rather nice la. oh man. i think maybe i'm going to die soon. i've been having so much problems with my stomach, with diarrohea and stuff.
and i kinda have symptoms of diabetes sometimes. i'm damn scared.
okay la. i'm not really. but if i die,
i'll give half my fortune to my mom and dad.
the other half shared between jo,lisa,kt,phongsai(huihui and louie doesn't need the money)venssa.
i'll donate my hockey stuff to mel, wq and mary.
my chupa chup to huihui.
my cows to kt. (you better keep them properly-even though u won't read this)
my pictures to lisa and jo and hsin. cause we took the most together.
my clothes to lisa. (: haha. guess why.
my laptop to .....any takers?
okay....i can't think already. anyone who wants anything of mine, tag and i'll try to leave it to you.

graduation on friday.
oh well. it's like i kinda thought i would never miss everything in the school....but oh well. i guess i was wrong.
now that there's one week left...i realize that the class is bonding so much more.
the girls esp. i mean for the past few mths i kinda talked more to jerm and jeanette so it's not that bad. and all along i'm q okay with derek and chun.
why do we as humans who always fail to cherish the things that are so near us.
i'm so going to miss
hy. (cause we've been best buds in class for the past year and a half?) and it would be really sad to not have someone being super blur, and 'stupid'(abt certain things) and just so indecisive and all the shitl. i'm sorry if all the descriptive words i used were so bad, but i can't think of anything better at the moment. and her relentless stories of her bf, bobby and ( i can't remember the name) blah blah blah. the in depth talks with have and stuff...
stella jan and hwee too cause we just go for break together and we just talk about so much jokes and all the shit...although we're not THAT close but we still have alot of things to share...so yup.
all the 2nd row ppl for always being really nice to me although we were never really close...
sigh. school's ending forever la.
no sch uniforms. no ties on mondays. no m tan. no jek suan. no brother. no waking up at 6.
i don't know what to feel though. i'm so going to miss ssyy. seriously. i think i'll give her some farewell cum belated teachers' day present cause she's been so nice to me. hahaha. and she told the class that i was the only one in class who's nice to her.

oh ya. how can i forget my HOMIES. weiqi, mel and maryanne. pilllar of support okay. although i know they won't read this. hahaha... especially during the ' darkest period of my cj life'. haha. what's with the drama. they're so nice to me and welcoming all the time la. weiqi for always being the crazy bitch who talks crap and accompanies me study. and maryanne and mel, the all time nice girls who are always there for you. haha.

okay. i shall think about what kinda farewell presents i want to give and to whom i want to give to.
anyway, i didn't mention the unglam ppl but they know i love them and it's cause we'll still see each other i guess! hahaha.

haha. fionne came over today to bake cookies for terry. haha. super ultra lame. seriously.














guess what i thought when i first saw it? haha. anyway. the k is supposed to be for me and t is supposed to be terry. complements of fionne lai. please she can't even stir the mixture... i had to do it for her even though it was for her bf. haha. but she's cute shit la. anyway, it was funny cause we were talking about jokes and watching hard gay boy. he's darn funny i tell you.
and then we just dug out all the old stuff to look at and talk about and it's so funny. like how fionne, tinwai and i used to go fionne's hse to eat and pretend to be F4 cause they were so sick. haha and my sad past (ie rosemary) and our sec sch life.
(: fond memories huh.
and like DUH. we took RETARDED photos. we can't seem to take normal looking ones i guess.






























this is our promotional picture for lai lai kitchen. hahahah. inside joke.
pictures speak a thousand words eh.

took alot of shit photos today. hahaha. damn rubbbishy with xiao yan, phong, hui and louie.
haha. full of shit. with the camera. i kinda developed it already somemore. i think i'm damn too much. haha.
so i'm officially rather broke now ): and it's rather sad cause i promised fionne i would take photos with her when i nxt see her(which is tomorrow). ):
i feel like shit la. i think i'm not studying...really bad.
goodness...oh god. please motivate me and give me the strength to overcome all odds (ie maths qns i do nmot know how to do and stress the shit out of me cause i feel so stupid after that AND scary announcements by ms koh which give us the feeling we're so darn far before that we'll never ever see the A)
Amen.
i'm sorry. i know i'm not a christian/catholic but i hope god will still embrace those who has sinned(ie me) and those who are not YET his sons and daughters(ie me) as well.
but on a lighter note, i think the class ppl has bonded better these few days and it's great to see all these. (:
i'll upload my first lomo photos soon! haha. although they're super unglam.
and i'm in the process of applying for the unis but it's scary and i don't very confident. oh well. study harder for the As i guess.
byeee. i love my friends. and i hope they love me. hahahaha.bye.