let's see. today was a rather great day cause i met up with kt. haha. NO LA. not just cause of that. also cause my mom nv PMS me, and i managed to do some work...and we had quite a few laughs so yup. laughter is the best medicine WHAT.
woke up this morning...did a few qns and last min decided to meet kt to study.
we talked about jokes along the bus ride and chatted about super stupid stuff...
and then she kept boasting to me about how she has no more marking to do anymore and i still have lots of studying to do ): thanks la. but she promised to continue studying with me (while she reads) cause she CLAIMS that she's very free now. hha. ya right. shall see what happens la hoh. haha. study study study.
this kinda post is so wuliao.
shit.

i was supposed to meet kt to study today and she ps-ed me. ):
oh well. anyway, the other day stella was talking about soft spot for CERTAIN friends.
i thought about it. and i realize it's q true. i really do have a soft spot for certain friends.
most classic and obvious eg- you shld know who. hahaha
it's like even when i'm rather angry with her (for a kinda situation that lisa would say i should totally ignore her cause it's damn irritating), i would feel bad if i don't talk/reply her msgs politely or friendly enough.
oh well. that's what friends are for hoh. but i can hardly consider her a friend la. at least i think it's not mutual.
ANYWAY. sch's been damn bad this week. i feel like i haven't done much and i'm so darn tired everyday. i do not know why. oh ya. i finally got my camera so i should be rather happy..but i don't really have the mood to run around and play and take photos now... ):
and sch feels so darn weird after prelims. it's like the whole atmosphere is really weird. sch just doesn't feel like sch anymore.
met kt on wed and we laughed q abit bout mei yan jie (if u guys remember who she is).
(: i kinda always feel a sense of inner peace and rather relaxed when we go out.
oh ya. and i'm meeting fionne next thurs and maybe tin wai will be coming so great. we should be laughing alot. hahah.
i haven't seen the unglam ppl in ages (namely phong, phy, not really for hui, louie, dawn, etc etc) and it feels so weird.
blahhh. don't know what to do. bye. got nothing much to say.

HELLOOO.
i think hui hui's blog makes me feel emo. oh well. haha.
i feel so weird. i don't know eh. it's like i really want to get into ust or hku. but like oh well.
they really have the course i want. and i'm so darn ready for it physically and mentally and i have a place to stay in, everything. it's just the stupid approval needed by the uni. oh well. it's so scary and sad at the same time. can someone tell me whether i'll get in? ):

i wonder what's in store for me. i have loads of aspirations. not like some ppl who have none. but i guess. forget it. my maths sucks. argh. i hope the other two subjects will turn out okay though...if not i don't even dare to send in my application form la. haha. urgh. anticipation..

anyway, i spent my week talking to my old friends (according to stella) so it was rather good...cause i seldom get to meet up with them usually, so it was damn good...it's like i feel some kinda spiritual rejuvenation cause it's like i had a rather sucky jc year this year (apart for the blessings here and there-like a few ppl in class, homies,the unglam ppl)...and my sec sch friends really make me think back on the past and thank god for everything. not that i'm a christian or catholic though. i kinda believe that it exists? but i don't know. i guess i want to have some kinda control abt my life so maybe that's why i choose to think that i can.

i miss the food club ppl like leesa, hsin and jo. and the crazy band ppl. grace, joanne, annie,deborah...blah blah blah. i realize i love crescent alot now...and my self proclaimed best friend. HAHA. whatever. bye.

i suddenly have a feeling that i'm blogging so that i wldn't be mia.
that's so weird...but i guess i just don't want to stop so that i won't stop altogether....
oh well. i know i want to cut my hair. not that i want to make it short or whatever but i hate the finch. it's so long and out of place...i think i'll keep the length and stuff though.
cause last night i dreamt that i had the kind of short hair that was shaven at the side and stuff...oh my godd...damn ugly and i didn't know what to do with myself...and i dreamt that my mom kinda disonwned me and stuff..oh my god. i woke up and immediately touched my hair. oh man. i was soooo glad it was still there. haha.
okay. spare everyone the blabber bout my hair.
meeting jamie later at island creamery!
haha. i'm relatively excited..
but i'm so upset cause i keep going out with ppl i seldom meet and i can' t take the photos that i want to with the stupid action sampler. cause it's not here. ): SADD.
i guess i'm secretly stressed and scared for the stupid prelims results..oh well. can't do anything bout it.
oh ya. yesterday's apple crumble was RATHER a success. haha. it tasted good but i think it was baked long enough...so yupp. i'm q confident of making my next apple crumble. hahahaha.

PRELIMS ARE OVERRRR.
i feeel so liberated. oh man. haha.
anyway, went out with fionne and we laughed about ALL the old times nonsense that we used to do and stuff...it was so funnyyy.
well. i can't remember the things we did actually...but yup.
after that we went back to crescent and we looked for springy and that we sat her car.
my godd. so coool. hahah...seriously, it felt like some car that would have fire and the back and stuff when it starts up..haha.
anyway, we went to westmall.(twenty yrs haven't been there) and we laughed like shit bout all the nonsense. and spent i think an hr discussing abt her "tuition centre". haha.
okay.
tomorrow we're having a party at mel's hse...and i'm going to make the apple crumble later i think...so yup..great stuff.
and i think i'll go to the gym. i feel so fat..
i miss trng. haha.

today was a great day. well not bad. haha. went for alumni practice. and mad and shuezk meng came too ( and of grace chee) haha. oh yah and DEBORAH CHUA. my godd. twenty yrs nv see them. it was really fun cause we played all the songs we've played before and it's so fun even though we sounded like shit... we talked bout esco and laughed bout mr chua and all the nonsense we used to do. it's funny how even though i'm not close to mad they all but we still can talk crap and it's so fun and so back to the past kinda thing. we ate like queenstown fishball noodles and grace's best-thing-in-the-world popiah and other stuff. rather nice cause i seldom go to hawker centres and stuff with friends. oh ya. priscilla also came with us.

then grace and i went to cityhall to meet joanne...and it was just funny cause we talked bout loads of stuff there and then i went to meet kt to study. she was so funny cause she can't remember anything much and she still kept trying to teach me. haha. in the end she called helpline (equals to her friend) to help me..and yup. she KINDA taught me. haha. well, it was nice cause it felt just like sec4. when we used to study everyday( and she'll mark) and teach me here and there...haha. studying again nxt wk i think. like maybe after a few days of break from prelims. haha. okay. i'm boring and i got no intellectual things to say. so sorry. bye. haha.

lisa said that she's excited cause she's making hokkien mee. haha
i'm going to make pig trotters braised with lotus root. oh man. it's definitely going to be damn good. oh ya. i'm also going to make some four seasons beans with olives.
(: even more exciting k. and we're going to have homies post prelims gathering at mel's on thurs and i guess i'll be making apple crumble and maybe beef stew!! hahaha. i'm soooo darn excited.

well. i should feel like dying cause i have SEA to study(Which i'm really don't know much abt) and maths(which i don't think i have time to study already) argh. haha. shall see how it goes. i can't wait for tomorrow to end. my godd. then i can have at least a rather happy weekend...even though i'll still have to practice maths and do some econs i guess...

Where's the cameras!?
well, cooking is theraphy...so i'm happy today. haha. yesterday i had a really lame conversation with my mom...actually i don't know whether i can consider it a conversation, cause she made the whole family decide whether kt looks like some holland v actress. as in seriously commotion cause my brothers were studying in the room and stuff. hah. it's funny.

anyway, i miss hockey seriously. so fat and boring life now...

i was just looking at old photos. time passes so darn quickly...



us in 2004.
















us now. HAHA.











and i kinda realized i have HARDLY any photos with karen tan. like maybe 5? haha. so sucky. i suddenly found this and it's REALLY bad. but i shall just put it up to remind myself.





i feel like dying. don't laugh.
2003.












2004. our class was wearing this retarded looking red and white socks. haha. super funny.

i was thinking of steve irwin and he appeared on animal planet with terri and their daughter.
ohman. i feel so sad.

yesterday was kt's bdae..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
haha. i think she had a great day cause she kinda had 4 diff grps of ppl celebrate with her...or was it 5? haha. anyway, i seriously think that fat boy is SUPER funny. haha. i love stories about him..
anyway, yesterday was a rather great day cause i had a wonderful start in the morn. went to the bank with my mom( not anything special) and then met hui hui and we laughed about super alot of nonsense. and also about stella's blissful jie jie. i really think it sounds sick.
so after that was meeting with ph, jamie and kt. and jamie was supposed to be a pleasant surprise...haha. she's still rather cute.. i don't know where the hell my camera is or else i wound have brought to take some pics seriously. so after lunch jamie and ph left, so we went to buy stuff and talked about lots of rather interesting stuff. haha.
it's funny la. seriously...anyway. i'm rather happy too cause when i reached home and i recieved a reply from ms low...so i guess we're playing for musical evening! another chance for reminiscing memories and the feeling of playing in concerts..and being with crazy friends. crescent seriously rocks. but i guess it's kinda sad after i talked to kt about certain stuff...and i hope all things turn out well for her in the end i guess....i think it's seriously inevitable and she thinks so...so well..i'm off to study for paper 3. please please everything turn out fine...

this is especially for annie, joanne, grace and the crescent band ppl...
Hi Ladies

This is a message for All once-upon-a-time CGS Band members, so please help me pass this message on as I've only a limited number of your emails.

Those of us who 'bravely' attempted and played, after putting it off for sometime, (in some cases more than a decade - me!) - did have fun & a memorable time at the 2 Sept performance. It was really a very overwhelming feeling to see almost half of the 700 diners who attended cheered whenever pictures of the Band appeared on screen; and even louder when Ms Ho Ching highlighted Mr Lee's attendance at the dinner.

Though Mr Lee is not available to conduct the Alumni at this Nov's Musical Evening - he has entrusted this task to Samantha. If we can keep the Alumni Band going - Mr Lee will be more than glad to conduct us at future get-togethers.

I know we are all busy - so it won't be an ambitious attempt - we will just put up a one to three pieces performance. We will practise mainly on Saturdays in November. For a start - just to ascertain that we can put it together - can ALL of us who are keen or just want to try it out (the older girls) - please make time to meet next Sat (16 Sept) 9am, CGS Band Room, - we will try out the music that Sam has picked; go away with them and then decide on a schedule to make the Musical Evening possible.

We will not do much now, just meet once/twice in Sept - cos' those in JC will be preparing for their promos or end of year exams (so no meetings in Oct) - then we will meet weekly on Sat in Nov.

For the current Sec4s (Emily/Huda: pls help to pass message): You will join us only after your last O level paper in Nov.

Hope to see you!

Ta
Geok Pin

ps.
(1) Musical Evening 2006 is on 27 Nov 06 (Mon) @ Esplanade Concert Hall. 7.30pm.
(2) If we can get this going - we will approach Mr Lee to conduct the Alumni at CGS Band Concert, 6 Feb 2007 @ Singapore Conference Hall.

anniee..so HOW? i'm tempted eh !! i want to play..

yesterday i had lunch with kt...and it was fun. haha.
well, i think the very highly debated issue might really not be a cause for alarm.
whatever. anyway, i guess when u get older, the maturity level levels off, or at least comes close, things will start to turn for the better and u'll just undestand each other better and all the stuff.
hmm..anyway, springy hurry give me the model number!

i feel that i'm kind of losing touch with the whole studying thing and it's scary esp yesterday when i started packing my stuff...i have a lot of practice to do and i still have studied paper 2 at all. i thought about being stressed...because u're supposed to be stressed when u have alot to do...so i decided to eat an orange, and nope..it still doesn't make me motivated. i went online, and nope still not happening.. then i recieved a letter from the mailbox from my dearest ex partner gloria lee and i realized that i have to study hard and forget bout being stressed( which i don't suppose i am having enough of it) cause she was so cute. haha.

forget it. i don't know what i'm talking about... you try to talk about the things whirling in ur mind and you get a mess of jumbled thoughts that sounds like u put in some effort to think through issues, but just don't know how the hell to explain it...anyway, i'm excited for sat's lunch with ph, kt and jamie. i havent talked to jamie(esp) and ph for eons and i bet it'll be great. it's kt's bdae then btw. i'm supposed to be studying then, but i guess no harm going out if i make up for the time by playing less...haha.and hopefully the stupid action sampler is gonna come by then. i want to try it out! arghh...irritating piece of shit.haha. what's with the effieciency of the lomo ppl now..

yesterday, we talked about challenges...i wonder what kind of challenges i like...i guess maybe the challenge of having fun, studying last min and hopefully doing well...what kind of nonsensical challenge is this? well, forget it...i better face up to it cause i have no choice what. bye.

A TRIBUTE TO STEVE IRWIN.
It's so sad that he's dead cause we'll miss another enthusiastic, crazy, aussie and all the shit man to tell us all about dangerous animals...a loss to animal planet i guess...he's like the only animal planet host that i know the name and whose show i watch all the time...well, to be killed by a stingray is really an unfortunate thing... hope his wife doesn't grief too much..cause i think she's a cute woman ( i mean how many crazy ppl would go ard with their husbands to play with crocodiles and all the sorts?) and they were cool together... okay. this is freaking lame...

anyway, today was super unproductive and i'm so upset with myself cause i wasted the whole day but i didn't buy anything and i can't concentrate on the things i'm supposed to be studying either...i mean.. ms koh's notes are great (cause they're in abundance) but i guess one of the reason i can't concentrate is because i seriously can't agree with some of her pts which i think are q lame. i'm sorryy. i'm not trying to act smart here or whatever..but some of her pts i feel are not really strong? well...anyway, i wonder what it'll be like if the SU still exists today...you don't learn as much if u haven't experienced it before....i kinda think that the whole pt of democracy overshadowing communism is just due to the basic human trait of selfishness. seriously. who wants to be the same as everyone else. and in the first place...without competition there would not be progress..isn't that what happenend to the SU? and who wants that? seriously...what kind of communist state can china claim to be? besides the fact that they're still dominated by the CCP? they have an open economy, privatization, unequal wages, increasing numbers of the rich, pollution, scarcity, poverty, corruption...what aspect clearly symbolizes a communist state? haha...i'm random.

yay. annie uploaded the pics. so i shall dedicate this to lisa so she can be jealous and to jo so she can maybe also be jealous. hah.












me and zf. funny not. after so long.












me and my buddies( i mean buddies and i) for the night. (: brought back great memories...seriously











annie and her supposed "childhood folly". HAH.















mrs heng cute not? i laughed at her hair for q abit.

okay.karen tan. i haven't gotten the one that i took with her ...since annie's face not that bad i shall allow her to be on my blog. (:

you like grace's face not. damn retard. and she's good at making it look natural...

people our age..really like to take photos in fron of mirrors. haha. anyway it's really slow. i shall upload the album soon.

I REVIVED MY BLOG!
okay. actually i wanted to q awhile ago so i could discuss some issues(with myself). but i was too lazy to do a template. but i found a relatively decent looking one that doesn't have stupid animaes which i hate(and i can't spell) so great.
anyway. today was the 50th anniversary crescent gala. it was really great fun. wasn't intending to go..but was asked to play for the alumni and i really didn't regret...felt really good catching up with my 'old time buds' and playing in the band, getting back in touch with music after so long and the gala dinner was really cool.
went ard with joanne, grace and annie. took photos.(Which i'll upload when annie does)..and just flash backed on all the nonsense stuff we used to do and talk about. like our esco. i was the president mind you. haha.
we went to eat fondue somemore after the whole thing...
oh ya. during the dinner there was just too much memories and feelings...i don't know how to explain...which explains the adrenaline and how i can't sleep even though it's 3am in the morning.
since blogs are supposed to be individualistic and whatever u talk about in ur blog would be criticized somehow by someone...i shall forget that it's a public blog because i only want to tell my friends of my 'revival' and talk about things which just randomly come to my mind.
let's see.
oh ya. it's kt's bdae soon and i'm excited to give her a present. haha. as i was bathing just now i had the she's forever going to be a special friend feeling...so i guess it made me feel happier and good(even though it might not be mutual)...and we're supposed to meet up next week i think...q excited. well, i have to study for my upcoming prelims...and that's what everyone going to say in all their blogs...so ya. bye.
i shall attempt to sleep.